Friday, March 8, 2013

OMG- It's a Girl!!



I am so excited about having another baby. I haven't been contributing very much to my blog but we do know that we are expecting another beautiful daughter. If I compared pregnancies so far, and yes, I am aware that you are not suppose to compare, but this second one is much more "fun" because we don't have the same financial stresses on us or the stress of the unknown about whether or not we will be good parents.


 Mable has grown to be a wonderful little girl- well on her way to either running a happy household, company or country....whatever she decides to do she knows that her Mommy and Daddy love her very much but now...our family has another baby on the way and sometimes I am so full of love that I think I will burst!

The baby's due date is set for early July but I don't know...Mable came two weeks early but who knows- this one might be relaxed and take things as they come. After getting to know Mable- who is very punctual, it does not surprise me that she is arrived early.

I am so curious about this new addition to the family- there will be a new personality in the household and everything will change....of course change is good ...change is wonderful and I am so excited!!

How will I make it until July??

Hope you have a great weekend!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

HAPPY 2013- The Year of Miracles

Hi Everyone!

I wanted to give You some time in 2013 before I shared my good will for the new year. I have dubbed 2013 as the Year of Miracles as many of you know..I am going to have a baby. A much wanted and secretly wished for baby. A new addition to our little family and a dream come true for a daughter who has longed for a baby brother or sister. Really sweet!

Professionally, I have had a glimpse of the future and want to change directions and re-enter the academic world. I understand that world so much better than the world of business. In the academic world you are given tasks, material to study and your evaluations are based on your work- this is not necessarily so in the business world. I need to retreat back into that world and study a subject that is dear to my heart. This actually took me by surprise because in Fall 2012, I was involved in some pretty amazing projects. I met some really amazing people and I even got a bit of international travel in under my belt but the whole experience left me feeling unbalanced. I don't do unbalanced well.

I opened my mind and allowed myself to consider the possibility that what I was doing might not be enough.  I realized that while being great at what I do and loving what I do, there was something more that I wanted to develop inside of me. Trust me, I envy those people that know exactly what they are going to be and do from birth but I do believe that the world needs people to tap into something a bit deeper within themselves and figure things out.


So its back to the future for me for a while- I start my studies at Stockholm University next week!!!




I am still looking for some amazing projects to work on and in fact I have two set for Fall 2013- more information on that at a later date but I need the balance. BALANCE= school on one side of the scale and DMS on the other side- that is what I need, I know that now.

AND yes....in the backdrop a new baby.....happiness!

So Happy New Year and let the Year of Miracles commence!!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden








Friday, December 14, 2012

I am currently reading Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail...this quote resonates with me so much


"Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me. Insisting on this story was a form of mind control, but for the most part, it worked. Every time I heard a sound of unknown origin or felt something horrible cohering in my imagination, I pushed it away. I simply did not let myself become afraid. Fear begets fear. Power begets power. I willed myself to beget power. And it wasn’t long before I actually wasn’t afraid.

I was working too hard to be afraid."

Excerpt taken from Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail by Cheryl Strayed

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Tis the Season

Every year our family either travels to Southern Sweden or the United States to celebrate Christmas with our family. So far, we have never celebrated a Christmas in our own home. The problem is lack of space. We have a large family here in Sweden and our sweet little city apartment is not suitable. Still, it would feel weird and almost isolationist to stay in Stockholm away from the family just to spend Christmas alone...plus, the child would be missing out on tons of presents which would have to be shipped to Stockholm and that is crazy. So basically, we travel around Sweden collecting all the presents for Mable and transport them back to Stockholm for her.

Butterfly Ornament purchased from Indiska 2010..I have a thing for butterflies!

Although we do leave I started to buy "special ornaments" like two per year because I still keep the tradition of putting up my Christmas tree immediately after Thanksgiving. In Sweden, people decorate the tree as late as Christmas Eve....The American tradition prevailed over that one...so we do have a few weeks of the holidays in the apartment although we are not here on Christmas Eve.
I kinda like owls in the tree..I have two of them but this one is my favorite. Purchased them from Ahlens in 2010. 

This year I wanted to share some of my favorite ornaments with you. We don't go crazy with holiday decorations. In fact, we are kinda low-key. I love the lights from the tree and the decorations that I have purchased over the years- mixed with ornaments that Mable has made in daycare.

We have a Mr. and Mrs. Claus set with real wool for hair, a little sheep that was sent to me in a care package from my dear friends in Miami, a Mariachi guitar player that I call my "Mexican Santa"- that was a gift from one of my best friends who was married in Mexico. I have a Nutcracker that my Granny gave me last year- because I had decided to collect Nutcrackers like five years ago but for some reason was not able to find one..the Nutcracker is on display year-round and so is the Snow globe "Douglas- The Berlin Bear" that I got from my sister from during the time she lived in Berlin and came to visit us here in Stockholm around New Year. My newest ornaments are also quite special,  one is a Chinese-thingy that we bought when we visited The Museum of Far Eastern Antiquities, here in Stockholm with Daniel's sister who recently passed away. The other is Pinocchio who I bought on our last day in Italy this summer, where we spent 4 wonderful days on Lake Garda with my oldest and dearest friends.


My family bought this ornament for Daniel when we lived in the States. He really likes it..its kinda cute!
I suppose that when I am old and retired I will have amassed enough ornaments to fill up our house. Hopefully, I will remember where and when I got each ornament and be able to remember/tell a funny story or remember a special person- the good times!

This ornament is one of my favorites. I got this one from William Sonoma when I worked there as a store manager. At that time I was totally obsessed with cooking and totally into the snowman chef ornaments.
So, I hope you all have a wonderful holiday this year...for many of us 2012 has been a "pain in the ass" but there is always the good to hold on to and that is what we need to do...hold on tight until our knuckles turn white, eat good food, give love and stay committed!

Here is Pinocchio that I bought from this amazing toy store in Sirmione on the last day of our trip to Italy.


Merry  Christmas and Happy New Year From Sweden!


Hugs,
KyanainSweden


Thursday, December 6, 2012

Finally, I can share!

So, I have progressed far enough in my pregnancy to actually feel like its ok to talk about it. I have my first meeting with my midwife tomorrow but if I go on the usual signals and signs that my body is giving me, everything is just fine. I feel a bit "delicate" lately..super sensitive and require simplicity. I need to slow down and save my energy for truly "important things". I need to be mindful, rested and drink lots of water. I remember becoming very spiritual during my last pregnancy- I feel tapped into the divine in a way that I don't have access to in my non-pregnant state. I know this is a miracle and it feels just fine.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Doing it!!

Hi Everyone,

Well, Autumn is officially here which means that its a bit darker in the mornings and there are more gray skies than blue skies to be expected. This however, does not phase me since this is my favorite time of year. Perfect uniform for this weather t-shirt, jeans and a cardigan...YIPPEE!   I am also very busy working as a web editor/blogger/content manager for a company called SIME. Next week we are off to London for our first ever SIME London Conference and I will be running around like a maniac trying to figure everything out.   Working as a web editor is really interesting because I am learning something new everyday. Its challenging and frustrating and a bit intimidating but I am up for the challenge.   My Granny and I had a long talk the other day and the subject of retirement and career flexibility came up. Its so important to remain open to new things and try to learn new skill sets because things are constantly changing and you never know when you might have to fit into another position or company or project. What we need to realize and accept is that learning is constant, which is why I apply for Spring 2013 classes at Stockholm University.   People talk about how they don't want to study but I don't see there being any options. How will you compete if you sell yourself based on what you already now..in the digital world what you knew yesterday is obsolete...you have to stay in the game through theory and practice.   I know, I sound really busy and I have cranked my life up a bit and ya know what has helped me???? WORKING OUT!   I am happy to report that I have stayed committed to myself and have continued on my journey to a healthier me. I have been doing weight training three times a week and doing Zumba classes. I am eating healthy food and really taking control of my life.   I hope this post finds you all in good spirits and in KICK ASS TAKE CHARGE MODE!   If not, I have attached my new favorite song for the treadmill..its in Swedish but just listen to it and get pumped up!  



 Hugs!

 KyanainSweden