Saturday, July 27, 2013

Welcome Home Little One




On July 6, 2013 my second daughter Olivia Marie Holmberg was born at Södersjukhuset in Stockholm. Our newest addition has already turned our family upside down and inside out. The next few weeks we are staying in Blekinge bonding as a family and enjoying the wonderfully warm and dreamy Swedish summer weather. Life is a miracle.  

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

The End is Near

It has been awhile, I know!

I have officially started my maternity leave so no more worrying about work and projects. I feel like its time to turn inward and prepare for the arrival of my sweet little baby. I'm not sure if I posted the news but we are having another little girl. At first I was convinced that I was carrying a little boy but the ultrasound revealed another truth.

We are completely prepared,  all the little outfits that were not ruined I decided to keep in storage for that day that we decided to have another baby. Now those clothes are washed, pressed and folded- and just like the rest of our little family waiting for the baby to arrive.

My first daughter came two weeks early so I am praying for an early arrival for this baby as well. Nothing would make me happier than to have that baby in my arms in two weeks. Everyone is super excited.

We are also seriously considering leaving Stockholm. I love it here but now it feels like its time for a change. My husband's family live in Southern Sweden, our summer cottage is there and I have started a new internet based venture with my sister so won't matter if I live permanently in Stockholm or not.

We also have greater opportunity to buy a larger home which is just not something that we want to do in Stockholm. As long as I have access to a large body of water I will be fine. Growing up in Florida it is required that anyplace I live has to have water that I can see on a daily basis. Göteborg, Uppsala, Stockholm and our new possible home all have this....so I am happy.

You might ask yourself what about finding a job? I don't feel that I belong to that group of people that only has opportunities in the capital. I know that the competition is fierce here and remember I am fluent in Swedish and have years of Swedish work experience but besides that, I have this new idea that I will be starting with my sister in the States so since I am already in the business of creating opportunities for myself I don't feel tied down to one area. My biggest commitment is to my family and moving provides immediate opportunities for the family.

Studying at Stockholm University has been an amazing experience! I have taken classes in Cultural Anthropology which I would describe as a study in politics. It has awakened a new passion in me and I will start volunteering with the Swedish Red Cross and continue working with that for the rest of my life. I know it sounds grand but you have to take risks and commit to helping others. Its the only way to survive in the world...GET OUT OF YOUR OWN HEAD!

So, on that note- I will end this post by saying that the past 8 months has been an amazing journey that has set me up for wonderful opportunities in the future.

I wish you all the best!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden +1

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I laugh at you cold..I shall prevail!


Today I need a bit of extra motivation. Mable has been home for a full week and can't seem to shake her cold. I'm just happy that its not the flu. We already caught one of the three flu that has been circulating in Stockholm. In fact, the hospitals have been slammed! Being pregnant doesn't help but I have been sick three times since Christmas but I keep on moving! I had a meeting this morning that I had to cancel because I am also sick..which is usually how it works..Mable gets sick at school and then BOOM- I get it too. Oh well, such is life but I have classes all afternoon AND I MUST GO (mantra)- so I gained a few hours to rest and conserve my energy for my 45 minute subway trip to campus followed by a two hour lecture and test prep! Sometimes you have to suck it up!


So.....let this be an inspiration to you all who are facing a tough day or week and can't see how you will make it through. No matter what, stay motivated and committed! Wake up and BE AWESOME!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden

Sunday, March 10, 2013

What goes around comes around

Whatever it was that Mable had has hit me like a semi-truck! In bed drinking lots of water today. Daniel and Mable are going to the Schlagerfest at Vällingby City to see Sean Banan.. She loves him! #sick #bored — at Råcksta.

Video Games and Gender Harassment

Ok, so I have been playing video games since PacMan was on Atari and I love them even today. In fact, video games are a passion that my daughter and I both share. She has become obsessed with video games. Her favorites are Minecraft and Pokemon..she will even watch Minecraft videos on Youtube to get inspiration. What I have never thought about is gender harassment in online gaming sites. I am sure that soon we will advance into the world of HALO 3 and League of Legends but for now we are happy to play our Wii games- My personal favorite is still Star Wars Lego.

After watching this video I realize that this is an important issue for everyone so I wanted to share it with you here.

About the video:

Excuse Me Princess - Gender in Video Game Culture: Stirling Little at TEDxUNC.


In case you didn't know TEDx is a program of local, self-organized events that bring people together to share a TED-like experience. At a TEDx event, TEDTalks video and live speakers combine to spark deep discussion and connection in a small group. These local, self-organized events are branded TEDx, where x = independently organized TED event.

I hope you enjoy the video



Have a great Sunday!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden

Friday, March 8, 2013

OMG- It's a Girl!!



I am so excited about having another baby. I haven't been contributing very much to my blog but we do know that we are expecting another beautiful daughter. If I compared pregnancies so far, and yes, I am aware that you are not suppose to compare, but this second one is much more "fun" because we don't have the same financial stresses on us or the stress of the unknown about whether or not we will be good parents.


 Mable has grown to be a wonderful little girl- well on her way to either running a happy household, company or country....whatever she decides to do she knows that her Mommy and Daddy love her very much but now...our family has another baby on the way and sometimes I am so full of love that I think I will burst!

The baby's due date is set for early July but I don't know...Mable came two weeks early but who knows- this one might be relaxed and take things as they come. After getting to know Mable- who is very punctual, it does not surprise me that she is arrived early.

I am so curious about this new addition to the family- there will be a new personality in the household and everything will change....of course change is good ...change is wonderful and I am so excited!!

How will I make it until July??

Hope you have a great weekend!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

HAPPY 2013- The Year of Miracles

Hi Everyone!

I wanted to give You some time in 2013 before I shared my good will for the new year. I have dubbed 2013 as the Year of Miracles as many of you know..I am going to have a baby. A much wanted and secretly wished for baby. A new addition to our little family and a dream come true for a daughter who has longed for a baby brother or sister. Really sweet!

Professionally, I have had a glimpse of the future and want to change directions and re-enter the academic world. I understand that world so much better than the world of business. In the academic world you are given tasks, material to study and your evaluations are based on your work- this is not necessarily so in the business world. I need to retreat back into that world and study a subject that is dear to my heart. This actually took me by surprise because in Fall 2012, I was involved in some pretty amazing projects. I met some really amazing people and I even got a bit of international travel in under my belt but the whole experience left me feeling unbalanced. I don't do unbalanced well.

I opened my mind and allowed myself to consider the possibility that what I was doing might not be enough.  I realized that while being great at what I do and loving what I do, there was something more that I wanted to develop inside of me. Trust me, I envy those people that know exactly what they are going to be and do from birth but I do believe that the world needs people to tap into something a bit deeper within themselves and figure things out.


So its back to the future for me for a while- I start my studies at Stockholm University next week!!!




I am still looking for some amazing projects to work on and in fact I have two set for Fall 2013- more information on that at a later date but I need the balance. BALANCE= school on one side of the scale and DMS on the other side- that is what I need, I know that now.

AND yes....in the backdrop a new baby.....happiness!

So Happy New Year and let the Year of Miracles commence!!

Hugs,

KyanainSweden








Friday, December 14, 2012

I am currently reading Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail...this quote resonates with me so much


"Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me. Insisting on this story was a form of mind control, but for the most part, it worked. Every time I heard a sound of unknown origin or felt something horrible cohering in my imagination, I pushed it away. I simply did not let myself become afraid. Fear begets fear. Power begets power. I willed myself to beget power. And it wasn’t long before I actually wasn’t afraid.

I was working too hard to be afraid."

Excerpt taken from Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail by Cheryl Strayed

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Tis the Season

Every year our family either travels to Southern Sweden or the United States to celebrate Christmas with our family. So far, we have never celebrated a Christmas in our own home. The problem is lack of space. We have a large family here in Sweden and our sweet little city apartment is not suitable. Still, it would feel weird and almost isolationist to stay in Stockholm away from the family just to spend Christmas alone...plus, the child would be missing out on tons of presents which would have to be shipped to Stockholm and that is crazy. So basically, we travel around Sweden collecting all the presents for Mable and transport them back to Stockholm for her.

Butterfly Ornament purchased from Indiska 2010..I have a thing for butterflies!

Although we do leave I started to buy "special ornaments" like two per year because I still keep the tradition of putting up my Christmas tree immediately after Thanksgiving. In Sweden, people decorate the tree as late as Christmas Eve....The American tradition prevailed over that one...so we do have a few weeks of the holidays in the apartment although we are not here on Christmas Eve.
I kinda like owls in the tree..I have two of them but this one is my favorite. Purchased them from Ahlens in 2010. 

This year I wanted to share some of my favorite ornaments with you. We don't go crazy with holiday decorations. In fact, we are kinda low-key. I love the lights from the tree and the decorations that I have purchased over the years- mixed with ornaments that Mable has made in daycare.

We have a Mr. and Mrs. Claus set with real wool for hair, a little sheep that was sent to me in a care package from my dear friends in Miami, a Mariachi guitar player that I call my "Mexican Santa"- that was a gift from one of my best friends who was married in Mexico. I have a Nutcracker that my Granny gave me last year- because I had decided to collect Nutcrackers like five years ago but for some reason was not able to find one..the Nutcracker is on display year-round and so is the Snow globe "Douglas- The Berlin Bear" that I got from my sister from during the time she lived in Berlin and came to visit us here in Stockholm around New Year. My newest ornaments are also quite special,  one is a Chinese-thingy that we bought when we visited The Museum of Far Eastern Antiquities, here in Stockholm with Daniel's sister who recently passed away. The other is Pinocchio who I bought on our last day in Italy this summer, where we spent 4 wonderful days on Lake Garda with my oldest and dearest friends.


My family bought this ornament for Daniel when we lived in the States. He really likes it..its kinda cute!
I suppose that when I am old and retired I will have amassed enough ornaments to fill up our house. Hopefully, I will remember where and when I got each ornament and be able to remember/tell a funny story or remember a special person- the good times!

This ornament is one of my favorites. I got this one from William Sonoma when I worked there as a store manager. At that time I was totally obsessed with cooking and totally into the snowman chef ornaments.
So, I hope you all have a wonderful holiday this year...for many of us 2012 has been a "pain in the ass" but there is always the good to hold on to and that is what we need to do...hold on tight until our knuckles turn white, eat good food, give love and stay committed!

Here is Pinocchio that I bought from this amazing toy store in Sirmione on the last day of our trip to Italy.


Merry  Christmas and Happy New Year From Sweden!


Hugs,
KyanainSweden


Thursday, December 6, 2012

Finally, I can share!

So, I have progressed far enough in my pregnancy to actually feel like its ok to talk about it. I have my first meeting with my midwife tomorrow but if I go on the usual signals and signs that my body is giving me, everything is just fine. I feel a bit "delicate" lately..super sensitive and require simplicity. I need to slow down and save my energy for truly "important things". I need to be mindful, rested and drink lots of water. I remember becoming very spiritual during my last pregnancy- I feel tapped into the divine in a way that I don't have access to in my non-pregnant state. I know this is a miracle and it feels just fine.