Sunday, January 31, 2016

Can't Wait to Get Back on the Mat

This past week I have been home with my sick 2.5 year old daughter. I have also been sick. My cold symptoms did not come immediately I had two days where I felt fine and so I would work out in the mornings just to get my mind and body prepared to spend a long day with my sick baby. Suddenly I would feel like I was about to catch a cold then I would be fine ...I would work out then boom.....I was sick again. I have decided to give up working out for a few days and just focus on rest. I feel disappointed that week 11 of my journey is spent in rest mode...I fear losing momentum. I fear losing all the progress I have made. I fear going backwards so this fear leads to anxiety and the anxiety makes me antsy which makes me want to work out more. Are you starting to feel the stress level gradually increase...all the while I am home with my 2.5 year old who is sick. So there you go...I have to figure out a way to handle this in a productive what do I do?

I search for workout videos on Youtube...whooo hooo!!! LOL...don't judge me...I am just trying to keep my motivation up and the stress down. So...there are two Youtube clips from Dance Fitness with Jessica that I want to share with you.

1. 3.00 minutes of dance fitness to Justin Bieber's Sorry..which is my favorite on my cardio playlist....I'm kinda obsessed. Jessica published this clip on January 28th so it is very recent...I can't wait to try it out!

2. The second clip is again Justin Bieber - What Do You Mean with cheorography from Dance Fitness with Jessica...I am a bit behind so this clip was first published on Jessica's channel October last year but its still a great song, fun cheorography and another cardio challenge I can't wait to master.

A little more on Jessica you can sign up for her live stream classes to receive exclusive and on-demand access to some dance fitness routines at:

Make sure to check it I feel a bit better.....remember its all about taking responsibility for how we feel and accepting who we are. Its about trying to become our true selves and constantly educating, challenging, motivating and centering ourselves....well, at least for me.

Welcome Back!

Thursday, January 21, 2016

From Activity to Advocacy

I can't believe that I just erased my previous post. I take that as a sign from the universe that what I was saying was making no sense at all. ...allow we to begin again. So, first off....MassageBebis Sweden has gone from being a mobile massage therapy service to actually being about advocating massage and mindfulness practices in the classroom. I haven't lived in Jönköping very long and I decided to start my company almost as soon as I moved here. That was a big mistake for me...I placed so much pressure on myself to get to know my surroundings and start networking that I didnt think about the consequences of applying to Jönköping University and what full time studies would mean for my life. 
I don't think that I expected to get accepted into the teacher program or expect to make it past the first semester, honestly....I had no idea if I would be able to successfully study in my second language...well, here we are.....the beginning of my second semester and I feel strong and ready to focus more on my concentration which is Swedish, English and Matematics. So with this in mind I have switched from active massage to advocating massage and mindfulness in the classroom. My observations are that the calm environment of the schools I attended are not what the average student experience. Teachers are challenged by students who have hectic lives outside of matter what the reason...sitting down and listening quietly to your teacher is a thing of the past. In fact, the new curriculum calls for students to be more involved so teachers have to learn how to share power in that space. 
Massage and mindfulness have a function in the lives of everyone....of course I am biased...but wouldnt it be interesting to learn more about how massage and mindfulness practices are being incorporated into the classroom. For many students, school is an escape perhaps the only space that makes them feel safe or at least on the level of everyone else. I believe that massage/mindfulness practice can help create that safe space which is benefical to the learning process as well. So I will use these posts and recreate this website to reflect what I am interested in the most...helping children find their calm. 
On a personal level, due to the stress unresolved issues with anxiety began to resurface. At first I had no idea what I would do and I began to feel very bad. Two different professors, after speaking with me about school related topics, took the opportunity to express their concern for my wellbeing. One professor basically said that I needed to start working out. She said being in a state of constant stress and worry basically meant that I was in fight or flight mode all the time and my cognitive functioning was impaired. I was moved by the fact that both professors took the time to speak with me about something as sensitive as my mental health. I took that as a sign from the universe and from there I started my mental health weapon of choice being...exercise. So, since this all relates so much to what motivates me the most ...I will include some posts about that journey as well. I think it will be an interesting combination and perhaps you will be able to learn about me as I write my posts as a way to learn more about myself...if that makes sense. from activitity to we go!
Thanks for reading. 

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

In the Moment- Olivia and Mable 2015

Friday, April 10, 2015

Påsk 2015- Easter 2015 Sweden

The sun is shining

Today was beautiful and winter seems to be willing to release her cold frigid hands. We spent a few hours at the playground and it was perfect. The girls play very well together and I get to relax and play a bit too. I need the sun more than you realize...I am returning to life.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

It's that special time of year!

I am so happy that my husband loves to bake because I do not. Its not that I don't love it, more that I am really bad at it. Well, its Christmas time in Sweden and its time to bake bake bake so today we are doing a little decorating, celebrating and baking together. Its all about creating the spirit and joy of Christmas and we have it here...together! I hope you enjoy the Christmas season as much as we do! 

Monday, March 10, 2014

Spring is here!

Although there are no leaves on the trees, Spring has arrived! I take daily walks in my area and I am starting to feel a bit nostalgic. We have lived here for a few years and there are memories all around. As much as I am looking forward to starting a new chapter, another chapter is closing. 
Feeling this way is normal and natural but it's painful. Driving home from Jönköping the other weekend I literally started to cry because I know there are only a handful of times we will drive that route. I'm growing and moving into the future with joy but there is a bit of sadness. 

Thanks again for the wonderful messages of love and inspiration. 

Let's stay happy and hopeful! 



Wednesday, March 5, 2014

The Winds of Change are Blowing

Unfortunately, I don't have any photos to attach to this post so you will just have to settle with the poetry of my words. I am happy to announce that my bout with "grumpy old lady syndrome" has passed. I have posted snarky pinterest photos and random rants on Facebook, I have argued with my husband, yelled at my kids and finally prayed. A few days ago the feeling began to fade as new solutions to the relocation situation presented themselves and now although things are not in my control, I feel that I have more control over the situation..if that makes sense.

We are always presented with options and what was worrying me was that it felt like there were no options. It still feels terrible to have my family separated during the weeks but we are getting used to it. We are doing the best we can with the situation and that is all we can do, isn't it?

So, it is time to apply for college courses for the upcoming Fall 2014 semester and I have found a few courses that look interesting at Jönköping University and a few interesting companies that I will approach about partnership opportunities. Now I am just mapping out my plan of attack and I feel good about it. I am anxious about the move, trust me...small town...will they like me...will I fit in...will people get the "KiKi"??????? These are the questions that pop up in my head but when I look in the faces of my girls I see openness and acceptance and try to apply that to the world around me.

I try......

Well, today Mable and Daniel drive down to Malmö. Tomorrow they leave for Rome with Daniel's family. They have a tradition to take the children the year they turn 10 to visit Rome. Olivia and I are staying home and for the next four days will just relax. As you can see, life is good! So, the winds of change are blowing, hard!

Remember to stay happy and hopeful!



Thursday, February 27, 2014

New Snack

And like always focusing on someone else makes me feel better. I thought thy I would offer the girls some juicy oranges to snack on. For Olivia this would be the first time eating oranges and she Loves them!!

Kyana not so sucky in Sweden