Sunday, December 7, 2014

It's that special time of year!

I am so happy that my husband loves to bake because I do not. Its not that I don't love it, more that I am really bad at it. Well, its Christmas time in Sweden and its time to bake bake bake so today we are doing a little decorating, celebrating and baking together. Its all about creating the spirit and joy of Christmas and we have it here...together! I hope you enjoy the Christmas season as much as we do! 

Monday, March 10, 2014

Spring is here!

Although there are no leaves on the trees, Spring has arrived! I take daily walks in my area and I am starting to feel a bit nostalgic. We have lived here for a few years and there are memories all around. As much as I am looking forward to starting a new chapter, another chapter is closing. 
Feeling this way is normal and natural but it's painful. Driving home from Jönköping the other weekend I literally started to cry because I know there are only a handful of times we will drive that route. I'm growing and moving into the future with joy but there is a bit of sadness. 

Thanks again for the wonderful messages of love and inspiration. 

Let's stay happy and hopeful! 



Wednesday, March 5, 2014

The Winds of Change are Blowing

Unfortunately, I don't have any photos to attach to this post so you will just have to settle with the poetry of my words. I am happy to announce that my bout with "grumpy old lady syndrome" has passed. I have posted snarky pinterest photos and random rants on Facebook, I have argued with my husband, yelled at my kids and finally prayed. A few days ago the feeling began to fade as new solutions to the relocation situation presented themselves and now although things are not in my control, I feel that I have more control over the situation..if that makes sense.

We are always presented with options and what was worrying me was that it felt like there were no options. It still feels terrible to have my family separated during the weeks but we are getting used to it. We are doing the best we can with the situation and that is all we can do, isn't it?

So, it is time to apply for college courses for the upcoming Fall 2014 semester and I have found a few courses that look interesting at Jönköping University and a few interesting companies that I will approach about partnership opportunities. Now I am just mapping out my plan of attack and I feel good about it. I am anxious about the move, trust me...small town...will they like me...will I fit in...will people get the "KiKi"??????? These are the questions that pop up in my head but when I look in the faces of my girls I see openness and acceptance and try to apply that to the world around me.

I try......

Well, today Mable and Daniel drive down to Malmö. Tomorrow they leave for Rome with Daniel's family. They have a tradition to take the children the year they turn 10 to visit Rome. Olivia and I are staying home and for the next four days will just relax. As you can see, life is good! So, the winds of change are blowing, hard!

Remember to stay happy and hopeful!



Thursday, February 27, 2014

New Snack

And like always focusing on someone else makes me feel better. I thought thy I would offer the girls some juicy oranges to snack on. For Olivia this would be the first time eating oranges and she Loves them!!

Kyana not so sucky in Sweden 

Oh well...Today sucks!

Still no luck on the house. In the back of my mind I wonder what the hell we were thinking when we took this on. I am tired, frustrated, disappointed and ready to throw in the towel. If I could, I would say that we just continue and let Mable finish out the school year in Stockholm. There are places around Jönköping where I just don't want to live but I still might wind up there anyway.... 
Everyone always thinks I am so strong and "inspirational" well that is bullshit. I'm not strong I'm a grown up and I understood from an early age that life is tough. Today, we are playing pajama party because I literally do not have the physical strength for very much more. 
I hate this... Moving sucks! Starting over sucks. Living apart from my husband sucks. Wintertime in Sweden sucks. Living alone with my children sucks... Trying to answer questions about what I'm going to do in Jönköping sucks.. Grey clouds suck.. This man cave sucks, the beds here sucks.....Bahh!!! 
There the rant is over and now....

Kyana sucks in Sweden 

Monday, February 24, 2014

Decided to spend Sportlov in Jönköping

Saturday morning we drove to Öland to visit Daniel's mother. She had not seen the children since October so a visit was long overdue. The weather was beautiful and I even had a chance to wear my #forever21 sunglasses! Do you like them?
We only spent one night because there was a really interesting house shown in Jönköping the next day.

 We loved the house. Tons of room. Minimal work needed. Spacious kitchen beautiful view of Vättern. Everything! So......... who knows there may be a resolution to this long distance situation.  
Mable is off for Sportlov so we decided to camp out in Daniel's man cave for a week. I would much rather bunk up with the girls and have the family together  in the evenings than be alone in Stockholm. But it is small.... 

 Will we make it? Of course! We are together and that is the most important thing.. Luckily we are close to town and the lake so we will be able to pass the time with one nice outting everyday. I'll try to post pics!
P.s.. Thanks for everyone's encouraging words the support really helps!  

Ok... the Girls need me now....


Kyana in Sweden

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Daily Routine

Here is my morning routine: 
6:45- wake up and get the troops out of bed. 
7:05-7:20- breakfast 
7:20-7:40 get Mable dressed and packed for school. 
7:40-7:50- Double check Mable is prepared, wash morning dishes, take two sips of coffee 
7:55- Mable is out the door 
8:00- Mable security call from designated check point
8:02- Backup wake up service call to Daniel
8:05- Morning nap/ snuggle with Olivia

Well... This usually lasts until 10am but around 8:55am Daniel calls to tell me that the Maintenance Dudes are coming by to check the leaky pipe in the shower and I can expect them to arrive at the earliest 9am! 


Olivia wakes up grumpy because nap time has been disturbed but we make ourselves presentable to receive guests and we wait. 

Maintenance Dudes arrive.. Take a look and tell me that they will have to call a plumber because this is "over their heads". 

Oh really? 


The day has started......

Hugs Everyone! 

Kyana in Sweden

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Valentine's Day Has Come and Gone

What you see here are my bouquet of tulips I received for Valentines Day. I was actually surprised to get flowers. Things have been in disarray these past weeks with Daniel living in Jönköping and I living with the girls alone. On Fridays all I want from Daniel is just to walk through that door but when we arrived with flowers .... Well, I thought it was wonderful. 
Last week I endured my first bidding war on a house I was convinced was the answer to my prayers. We were both so sure that we would get that house but the price went to high for what the house was worth and we backed out. Admittedly,I was upset. For a moment it felt like this separation was coming to an end and the new chapter of our lives was about to begin but as it turns out.. The hunt continues. 
This weekend we have another showing on an even better house than the one we walked away from... Nothing like buyer's remorse. I wonder if the other buyers regret their decision? Anyway, we have a nice long week in Jönköping with Daniel because Mable will be out of school for Spring Break so it's off to the man cave. 
I am actually looking forward to this.. Some time with the family reunited again. I couldn't ask for more. 

Take care of each other! 


Kyana in Sweden

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Sunday Afternoon

Some days we just pile into my bed and hang out. These are the moments I will wish we had more of when my girls are all grown up! 
Be with the ones you love....